But now I find myself saying things like...
When I get my masters. When I've been teaching for 10 years. When I'm married. When I've carried a child for 9 months. When I have a few grey hairs. That's when they'll stop saying my dress is too short and I laugh too much to be teaching and "She's just too close to the kids."
When I'm older. That's when they'll like me. That's when I'll be credible.
I've longed my whole life for credibility. But working for it...well shit, that's hard. I don't wanna. I know who I am. I know I can be trusted. I know what I know.
So I find myself stuck. In this vicious cycle, of yearning for authority but also pushing it back. I want it, just to say I have it but I don't want it enough to work for it.
So maybe, the argument is valid.
When I get my masters. When I've been teaching for 10 years. When I'm named teacher of the month. When I get married. When I've carried a child for 9 months. When I...