Ever since I graduated--a mere 12 days ago--I've proclaimed that while I'm technically a grown up, I refuse to grow up.
I'll maintain the responsibilities of a grown up, I'll pay my bills on time and show up to work, yet my mentality and my heart and my thoughts--well, those will remain chidlike, creative, and free flowing.
Yet everytime I express my need to remain childlike, the remarks I get are not encouraging to say the least. In fact, I get a lot of "good-luck with that" or a heap of sarcastic half attempted laughs. And I wonder...when did it get so bad? Ya know, life? When did it become this thing that we must trudge through.
Because that's how I've felt it's been for me for a while. Simply making it through the day--never actually feeling or being present in the moment that is at hand. Never taking time to smell the roses, or wish someone a good day, or remind myself that what I offer others is of value and worth.
I guess what I'm getting at is--I wish I had taken more time this semester to take care of myself and to be connected to what I was feeling and how it affected my every day life. I wish I had taken time to check in with old friends and to see if they were feeling the way I was feeling too. To reconnect with others to let them know that while we each have our own sail, they all are guided by the same rushing wind.
I'm going to make a genuine and authentic effort to reconnect this week. To reconnect with friends and family, to reconnect with the earth, and most importantly to reconnect with my intentions and myself.
I'll be on my way back real soon,